The tears came even though I didn’t want them to
The day I had to think about life without you
The day you left me with nothing but loose ends
And no chances of ever making amends
I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep
Couldn’t even take a shower without completely breaking down
I guess to you, I was in too deep
And you were fine watching me slowly drown
I listened to every sad song there ever was
I sat in my pity, too upset to be outraged
Finally, one day, I decided to hit pause
And my playlist started to change
I thought of how you treated me
How bad you hurt me
How bad you broke me
How bad I wished you never met me
He doesn’t want me anymore.
And the journey to acceptance
Took lots of tears and hitting the floor
But now that I’m here, I see it from a whole new perspective
If I didn’t have that heartbreak,
I would’ve never met you.
The first time I saw your face, I couldn’t breathe
I promised myself I’d never fall again
And here I am, not able to move my feet
I was terrified to try.
What if you break me just like the last one?
What if you make me feel like I can fly?
And then what if you tell me we’re done?
I’m still not sure if I can completely trust myself
But you’re putting every part of me back together he broke
You’re taking away all the hurt, the pain, my dusty heart on the shelf
You’re leading me through all the smoke
You are my saving grace.
You’re getting me closer to healing every day
You’re getting me out of this painful place
You’re showing me a better way
You’ll never know how much you mean to me
You’ll never understand how much I regret being his
But take my hand, let’s take this ride together and see
If you can truly show me what love is.
- Bella Davis